Day one... first time blogging

All of these while, I have been reading others' blogs. More often than not, I don't even know them. But life is full of wonders and unpredictable things. As an example, while performing umrah last Ramadhan, I met the mom of another blogger, Kak D. Above all places in the world, I met her mom in Mecca whereas all of these while, I havent meet Kak D even once while I am in UK even. Will try to meet her and go midland to visit her (did I promise her mom to pay Kak D a visit after I go back UK?... alamak did I said, "InshaAllah"?). Me from the north east of UK travelling to midland in winter? An idea that I will think extra careful. It is not because of the cold weather. Just lots of pending works that I have to finish before The Supervisor starts to get back to work after her sabbatical leave. Yeah.. I am "free" for the time being. Perhaps that can be used as a justification why I started this blog. I have extra time, people! Or is it an excuse of diverting myself from my study? I do have life, people, other than the so called PhD programme. Yeah, whatever it means.

I know that some of my students (or should I used the term, ex-students since I am on my study leave til 2010) might come across this blog somehow and read whatever I post. Well, if they do, this is a proof that life is more than study. Have fun! (Did I ever tell them that before?) I will try to post funny quips, and stories ... nothing serious stuff about research (if I do, then you know I am in a state of "Dalam jaga, dalam tidur = research") . Now, it seems that I am not in that state yet.

People used to say to me that I am lucky that I am still single while doing my PhD. For me, it is a blessing in disguise that I am still single (I am not self-promoted myself as being single and available here) I can't imagine myself to juggle between study, hubby and kids. I salute who have the abilities to do so. Yeah, instead of scrutinising what I don't have, I should scrutinise what I have. I have the opportunity to go abroad to study. To travel around europe (when I have the money and time). I have unweavering family members and wonderful friends who are always there to support me. What I don't have is just a husband and children. That's not that bad, isn't it? Yeah, I know. Some might say, I will regret saying it later (Menyesal kahwin lambat, nanti lambat dapat anak, lambat la nak bercucu... etc etc etc) The thing is, it is not that I don't want to settle down. It's just finding The Right Man is not easy for me. For others, it is so easy for them.

Hari Raya is something I really look forward to when I was far away from my family. I planned carefully to do my research around the time of Hari Raya just to go back Malaysia and be with my family. It turned out that Hari Raya and to meet family and relatives can be one of my nightmares. I am dreading to hear the "soalan cepu emas" every visit on Hari Raya (buat spoil my raya mood je), "Bila nak kawin? *** pun nak kawin tahun depan." *** aka my 26 years old nephew - my eldest sis's son- is engaged and getting married next year in May. Another "soalan cepu emas", "Masa pergi umrah, tak doa ke kat Jabal Rahmah minta dapat jodoh?" When I went for my umrah, my plan is to do ibadah umrah and although I did pray for my health, wealth and other few things, DEFINITELY marriage is one of them. Itu pun mau tanya lebih-lebih ke?

Thinking back, did I ask specifically for my jodoh? Errrmmm... let me think back. As far as I remember, I did pray for it and for other single friends too. For me, specifically, I imagine The Guy's face every time I recite Rabbana Hablana Min Azwajina Wa Zurriyyatina (til the end). I believe that we have to be specific in what we doa and wish for. The Guy? Did he know that I imagine his face? No. He does not need to know. Yeah, if he reads this (which I don't think so with his busy schedule and stuff) , I did that because I really mean every action that I do and every word that I said and wrote. Hopeless romantic? Nay. I am just being myself. (To my students who took Social Psychology class aka Kelas Psikologi Cinta, I am practising what I taught you guys before) . The thing that I did not teach you guys is, how to "buat muka tak malu" to approach gadis/jejaka idaman. That's not a part of the syllabus. Gosh... If my HoD and Dean know about it, I will be doom. Well, the students were in their final year so I should impart some knowledge, what? The result? When I checked my letters not long after I came back from Durham, I was quite surprise to get wedding invitation cards from my students. Yup... my students who I taught before. Did they apply what I taught them? Gosh... I never know that they will took it seriously when I imparted the "knowledge". SHOOT!! Did some of them recycle some of the love poems that I wrote? Alamak, if that's the case, I can't recycle la all those love poems.

Yeah... life is ..... unpredictable..... Whatever it is, never regrets with those things happen unexpectedly... Cheers!!!!

P/S: His family is coming to UK... SHOOTTTT!!!! My best friend asked me a favor to entertain them while in UK. Adoi... how can I face him after all the things I have done?.... regret that I ever let him know how I feel about him? Never. Just I am so OVER him right now.... gosh... talking about unpredictable things, huh?...